Pat and I in Vegas last year.
It’s the last of many. The last blog I’ll probably get around to writing before the babies arrive. The last time Pat and I will go out for a meal without 3 babies with us or at home waiting. The last time we will have a weekend just to ourselves.
Is this me being selfish? Am I really ready for what’s ahead? Or is this completely normal? Does every person about to become a parent feel this way?
When I wrote my first blog I remember feeling so many mixed emotions. I was overwhelmed, scared, relieved I could actually get pregnant, excited and even a bit numb. Although time seemed to heal some of those feelings and allow us to get our head around what was ahead.
Having said that, they seem to be back in full force. Whilst I’m so excited, I’m also terrified. I’m sure every parent would go through this feeling, whether they have 1 or 10 children. We’ve have many last times of something but we’re also experiencing something for the very first time. Parenting. We will now be purely responsible for 3 little humans. We won’t be able to give them back at the end of the day, or quit when we’ve had enough. It’s completely up to us. Although that’s a bit scary, it’s also pretty bloody amazing.
Now it’s time to have a first. Whatever this next chapter brings us, it will be a first time of many experiences. I’m ok we won’t be able to go out for a meal or have a weekend away in peace. This is bigger than that. We’re ready as we will ever be. It’s going to be the hardest yet most rewarding job we’ll ever do.
We have a scan next Thursday which will be at 33 weeks and 4 days. The scan will tell how they’re growing and when we are going to have these little babies. I’m hoping to hold on until past 34 weeks…fingers are crossed.
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